I suck at updating blogs. I suck at going to class. I suck at staying focused. Ugh.
So, my life since my last update has been good. Actually, it’s been great. I’m pretty much over the “Big Event is the worst thing ever” phase. And I’m not so angry at the world about it anymore. Really, my only complaint is that I’ve been super-de-duper sick on and off since then. Migraines and flu-like symptoms, or a cold and fever. I’ve had it all. And it sucks trying make up the class that I’m missing for it. But, in general, life is good and I’m happy.
So, in my depression over Big Event, I forgot to tell you about getting my fightin’ Texas Aggie Ring! It was the greatest day ever. It’s so awesome to finally get what it is you’ve been working so hard for. I love this little piece of gold on my hand. It makes me feel accomplished. It also makes me feel old and kind of panicky. I mean, having my ring means I’ll graduate soon, which means I need to plan my life, which means the real world is about to smack me in the face. And I am sooooo not ready for it. How am I supposed to plan right now for what I’ll be doing in almost a year? I don’t know what I’ll be doing or where I’ll be then. Shoot, I don’t even know where I’ll be tomorrow.
I realize there’s a simple solution for finding peace about all of this. A little bit of prayer and some time in the Word always leads me to peace of mind. It’s just a matter of actually doing it. It seems like the harder I try, the harder it gets. Why is that? Why am I so out of the loop now? It’s frustrating and humbling at the same time. It just shows me how far I am from where I should be. But I’ll get there, right?
